困扰+想念

最近很烦恼，总觉得leader一直针对我，我做什么事，说什么话，她都放在心上，真的是说者无心，但听者有意，我说话不带任何意思，但是她却觉得我再损她，我真的是无言了，她无奈我更无奈呀！每天都会被开刀，我又不是逆来顺受的人，真的是烦恼呀!可以说她是有点小气和多疑吧！不过算了，久了就会习惯了吧！就像每个拜一是最塞车的，我也是最讨厌拜一啦！不过久了就会习以为常吧！

又突然想起你了，看着报纸上的通告，明天要把它交给HR，心里有种难过的感觉，时间或许能冲淡一切吧！

ooopssss

recently duno wat's wrong i unable to get sale OMG..mayb bc the fengshui gua haha..everyday wen thr r smtin wrong den i owy the FIRST 1 kena kai dao OMG..how cum ya? i oso dn understand lo..1st day the leader scolded our team den im the one who kena kai dao 1st..she said " SUKI, ARE YOU WITH ME?" i ans "YA"..pissed off bc of my leader..she wan me replace the funeral leave by extending my internship period..i refused to do so den luckily the HR manager said if i able to provide the evidence such as death cert den i nt nid 2 replace..haha..

recently its easily feeling down..ya..i noe time wil heal evitin..mayb i nid more time..

tmr stil nid work OMG but nvm i gt sometin 2 do haha..sing k with the voucher rm300 yahoooo..so happy la...

my first lesson of the swimming haha..hope can learn hw to swin asap la..

have a nice day

YOU will always in my heart

很傻

往好的方面想，觉得自己很傻，今天一早醒来很难过，因为昨晚你没在梦里出现，渴望见到你...朋友有时会说她梦到亲人而我也希望能梦到你...

心情起伏不定

相信你会永远在我心中

纸鹤的思念

我真的很想见到你

101010 心中的痛

一场车祸夺走了我最挚爱的亲人...

和往常一样，我去snowflake上班，同事帮我开罐头不小心割伤了手，血一直流不停，而我站在旁吓傻了...一整天精神恍惚，也不知怎么了，到了下午还不小心打翻了东西>.<""


吃着晚餐，突然接到父亲的来电，问我能否明天赶回来，叔叔车祸去世了...晴天霹雳，我当场吓傻了，立刻请假连夜赶回bp，难以呼吸的感觉，在火车上难以掩饰心中的痛而流泪，我完全接受不到，一直想着或许爸爸搞错了，回到家爸爸会告诉我只是虚惊一场，在巴士上我醒了又哭，哭了又睡...难以接受最疼我的叔叔去世了的消息.是我选择不去相信所听到的，我只相信眼睛所看到的，晚上1点多才到家，隔天早上看新闻，看见大姑受伤进医院，而叔叔真的走了，心里很难受，早上醒来多希望那只是一场梦，但是事实的残酷由不得我再继续自欺欺人。爸爸彻夜未归，忙着把叔叔的遗体从马六甲运回来，早上一去到善堂，看着叔叔躺在草席上化妆，整个心沉了下去，根本没办法接受这残酷的现实，叔叔就躺在那里，不会再醒来了，不会再叫我“小阿妈，小阿妈“，”小阿妈，你以后要读什么科" "小阿妈，你做么酱久没来阿妈家，阿妈老了有空就过来“对我的偏心，我都知道，知道你是最疼我的叔叔。

三天的葬礼，全程我不曾开口说话，只是默默的看着棺材的你，跪着拜着，心里想着这是梦吧！或许一觉醒来什么都会消失吧！直到送你走的最后一程我在葬礼哭了，白发人送黑发人所以我选择不在阿妈阿公面前掉泪。

叔叔，我想你，在梦里让我见见你好吗？只是一次也好，来梦里找我和我说话，我都满足。

happy mooncake festival^ ^

i spent all my time in calling the customers today and unfortunately, i gt scolded by 2 customers.. WTH...quite frustrated d..2 customers was FEMALE..vr bu shuang kena scold aldw its no a big deal since im selling the insurance and most of the ppl dslike insurance include me as well..but i stil unhappy d ishhh...btw i managed to get sale today haha..its sooo lucky la..after kena scold by customers, im vr bu shuang n cincai did the phone calling lo..LOL~haha

today was my 1st day work in snowflake..i worked as a kitchen crew..smtin like waitress la..quite happy gek..the supervisor and crew thr treat me vr nice n taught me alot of things.. i gt 2 noe the menu and the method to prepare the dessert hehe..the time passed vr fast wen i worked thr..i enjy alot haha..when im working in the VIPS, i feel the time pased super slow d lo..sien dao..smur the supervisor owy assign soooo litle call list 2 me so that i nid 2 repeat cal the same person until kena scold lo...rili wat the.....

my 同事vr 3 8..he told me that "aku suka pada kamu" wahhhh..so romantic la..its just for fun haha..he is a malay guy caled zakie haha..eviday he meet me den he wil say "SENYUM, SENYUM, SENYUM" but i still show him my cool face lo..LOL~den snowflake fren said that i look like 18 yrs old hahaha..FOREVER YOUNG haha..

sleepy..nite nite..sweet dream..im waiting for you n hope u will appear in my dream^ ^

Breeze Bikini~project~internship

the uniform tat i wear for BREEZE BIKINI project OMG..ugly lo..LOL~

finally finish my 1st promoter project BREEZE BIKINI..very happy right now..i wan to FLY le haha XD..i worked in 2 wkend wich mean 3days for it..promote the Breeze liquip to the customers..its a easy task actuali haha..the supervisor nt with me so i owy makan ular lo..LOL~

for the internship..i finish my 5days training n start to work le..5days training..3days was theory like atend lecture for 8hours den 2days sat bside senior and listen them hw 2 present the product to customers..2 days killing me..super bored d lo>.<"" anyway finaly i start made call la haha..happy..the 1st day i made cal to the customers den no sales at all..kinda sad in the 1st day...i hate insurance actuali but my job is insurance so i nid try 2 gt use to it or fall in luv to it>< y i hate insurance? erm...bc i feel like the insurance agent is vr pian ji..i min some of them la..some of them wan 2 gt sales so they will force the customers by saying smtin like if acident hapn 2 u den u die den hw? i met some vr pian ji insurance agent b4..so i hate insurance lo..the 1st day my senior did smtin nt so gud..the customer rejected to buy it but she said premium rm35 monthly, kamu tak boleh afford ke? kinda rude d..if im customer i will cut the phone immediately lo..i dnwan 2 do such thing..i dnwan 为了自己的利益而do smtin bad like cheat,force or watever..1st day no sales T.T..

the 2nd day we gt hit and run program min which team cn achieve the target den they can go bac earlier..im so happy bc i managed to gt 2 sales and our team able to achieve the target as well haha..bac early..happy ^^ haha..my leader gv me sm feedbac for my sales..she said i gt 2 improve my confident..bc tru phone, she can felt im shaking,i vr afraid jiang aiya...my 1st customer is indian guy den 2nd customer is chinese guy..happy d lo hehe...but smtin unhappy happen...gt 1 customer vr angry and he scolded my leader..i duno hw 2 manage the situation so pass it to my leader den she handle it vr well..but i can felt that she is vr sad wen kena scold by customers..the customer care for privacy..he dslike insurance too i tink..insurance tru phone calling soo....nvm..its passed ady..thx 4 my leader miss didi..she rili is a gud leader..thx 2 my senior Zack too bc he helped me alot too..

my fren paifong, who work same company as me is quite stress and sad..bc she cnt gt sales..hope lucky god can follow her and she cn gt sales..twin sister destiny

mummy unhapy >.< bsd internship, i stil work as promoter and now i gt another waitress job so mum is unhappy..she said i wil vr tired n hope i dn work>.< but actuali i dn work as promoter le..the BREEZE is my last project and waitress is my nw part time job..quite lookin 4ward 2 it..hehe..i like SNOWFLAKE haha..

GANBATTE and hope everything going well..

hope my fren can get sales
hope sister and brother can do well in their UPSR
hope mum will happy and I really can take care myself well

1st wk internship life^ ^

start my internship ady..it was my first week^^everything is going well...3days for the training.. its all about theory so its quite bored..attend the class for 8hours OH GOSH..feel so sleepy la..the officer thr nt bad..vr relax..although the company is full of malay..my trainer is a malay woman who called miss Hany hehe..she owy laf on me bc i owy do smtin that out of xpectation haha..LOL~the 1st day and 2nd day of training cn bac early..its at 5pm wo..so happy la..haha..KL rili vr jam lo..5pm gt in bus but i reac hum around 7 OMG..pissed off gek aiya..the 3rd day of my training we need to get into the floor to c how our senior make call to the customers..each of us gt different senior..my senior is a malay gal but HE is a tomboy..surprising lo haha..top performer in the company..HE quite fierce and serious d but HE taught me alot hehe..btw the company tat im working now is telemarketing co..VIPS is an outsource call center..the bank like cimb, rhb and standard chartered outsource their insurance for VIPS that our job is to do direct sales tru the phone calling..

the 1st day i came to work den i met a guy..he is my senior as well..same as me came here for intern haha..his skin is kinda bright and his left face side is quite lengzai so i gv him a name called XIAO BAI..LOL~haha..there are two seniors who are same as us came thr for intern..haha..the gal quite lenglui gek but they gonna leav soon..such a pity la...i managed to get XIAO BAI name haha=P lunch time purposely asked them cum sit v us den v gt 2 know each othas jo haha...just for fun nia haha..lengzai for motivation ma haha..

bs, i managed to read ur blog o..the lavender is so beautiful..i like it haha=P miss u alot o..btw im in humtwn now..my company give us raya break till nx monday so i will stay in bp til nx monday haha..i start my part time job ady..the clothes is vr ugly..if gt chance i wil take it n upload it haha..

SHE lost temper on me again W/H hearing my explaination OH GOSH..feel kinda pissed off d bc my fren lk felt its my fault to make HER angry..IGNORE and dnwan bother ishhh...

5days holiday haha..16 is malaysia day so i gt holiday again haha..so nice^^ starting from nx wk i gt 2 work fro 9-730 le..working life..GANBATTE=)

Sotong sotong

Go to training but I took wrong bus..OMG..end up spent more to take taxi..i nid to take the bus of T629 but I took T628>.< SNOOPY la aiya..1st time go for training den actuali I 4gt the place ady..but luckily I managed to get it in the end..haha..arived thr n gt to noe the product tat I sell is BREEZE BIKINI..huh?bikini? haha..its washing liquid actuali..the bikini just a name nia haha..quite interesting lo..but the uniform is super ugly lo…uniform n cap..RED color..OMG..nvm..just wear for 2wkend haha..smur I work in smwhr tat rili hard 2 meet ppl 1 so nvm..wun meet ppl den wun so FISH lo..LOL~

my fren tot 1/9 is fri..4tunatly I dn sha sha go kl sentral wait 4 him lo..hehe..its my 2nd day in the new house..stil nt vr get used v the new environment here..my face gt serious sensitive lo..at night, it will seriously itchy=.= aiyer..i sl3p early here n wk up early too aiya..guess wat time I wk up? Its 5smtg ya aiya..smur im nt tidur nyenyak wa..tidur ayam nia aiya…such a pity la T.T..housemate nt bad gek but I rili vr paiseh go out chat v them so jz stay in rum or day time hang out v fren n nite time bac rum nia..wondering its I stil cnt gt used the environment or bc I dnhv pillow n blanket leh? Gt 2 buy it tdy le..too rush jo so dn buy it yt..

1st time took motor in kl..vr funny leh haha..fren fetc me haha..my fren always zat me I will never alone bc always gt sm1 apear n willingly to be my SHUI YU..so bad la..they r nt shui yu lo..i jz shun bian ma..tgt tgt tgt so nice..hehe..

start working soon..good luck to me..ALL THE BEST^ ^

sick jo

plan 2 work for 4days but end up work for 2 and half day..why? bc sick jo==" sore throat+cough OMG..goin 2 kl soon n tinkin wan go 2 c doc or nt..

make up rili cn make a gal look beautiful..well..im lazy 2 make up 1..simple is my style haha..work in the camera fair n mstly the gal gt make up 1..den im the ONLY ONE MONSTER over thr..i dn make up..just simple jean+uniform of panasonic haha..duno its i bcum mature or the 1st impression i gv ppl..i dn f3l like 2 talk..my fren told me b4 tat my 1st impression to othas is nan yi jie jin+PLS KEEP DISTANCE V ME oh gosh=.= watever la...no topic to talk leh..no same channel..they al wear leng2 n ban leng2 to work den i rili f3l like im the MONSTER..they wear skirt go 2 work>.<"" wear skirt is vr inconvenient for me so i dn wear..LOL~

my parking skill OMG..rili cha la..tdy kou dao othas car den i run away...jz a litle bit haha..den my side mirror gt a bt kua hua too>.< aiya..

going to bed..nitezzzz

1st day working haha

kinda a long time dn work part time...especially work as promoter haha..tuitor i gt experience but promoter i have no muc xperience lo..LOL~

reach thr punctually but the fair start at 11 OMG>.< the malaysian's culture>>late n not punctual..last time went for training the trainer told me start at 230 but end up 330 OMG==" well...1st day working...fro pentax promoter change to lumix promoter..haha..my camera brand but actuali im nt familiar v those electronic products 1..as long as it can take photo and its clear den i tink its suitable for me le..haha~gt chance to try al lumix camera..nt bad lo haha..the camera tat i bought last time nt bad gek..but...its vr big n inconvenient to bring out actuali..but my camera nt bad liao d la..dnwan buy a new 1 le..waste $ nia..haha

btw..dear bs..i met ur sibling..ur da jie,her bf,er jie, her bf, ur bro bla bla bla..met al ur sisters and brothers but dn meet ur parent la haha...den met pr too..she is rili vr kou ai la haha=P

bp gt a lot of lenglui..no lengzai la..the promoter mstly came fro convent..junior..they r vr young..17 or 18 like tat..among them im the oldest 1 lo..T.T..but nvm i owy look FOREVER YOUNG d ma haha..btw the lenglui mstly came fro convent..convent sch produces lenglui n im ONE of them too haha=P..their skin white white n slim slim gek..i wan go piao bai my skin la..like MJ haha..den kp fit bcum slim slim haha..i tink my "depan" gt improve a bt recently..but my body like pork chop..TBT(bs i used ur 口头禅,i should do referencing so tat my blog dnhv high plagarism, XD)gt 2 KEEP FIT KEEP FIT KEEP FIT..dnwan eat so much things le..do more exercise..fren said i no fat but actuali gt d lo..sad dao..


my body shape bcum like tis lo..fat fat fat T.T kolian dao>.< no eye c..mayb i should gt a bf den hor wil kurus again liao..gt bf den wil gt a bt emo ma den wun eat so much lo..LOL~i tink im in the stage 3 now>.< if dn kp, den wil bcum the last stage T.T


my target: PEAR~IS IT POSSIBLE? =/ exercise exercise>>>no supper>>>no FAST FOOD

I love HOME~LOL

home now..the time passed vr fast..tdy thursday ady..leave 4days den i will go 2 kl ady..sept will start soon..another busy time for me..cnt back hum often 2 accompany my mum..after my sis married,smtimes mum will lonely i tink..oldest sis workin, youngest sis married although smtime she gt bac hum, dad busy working as well..baby accompany my mum most of the time instead of working..sdly miss the time wen v r young..

wen we r young, we always argue..3gals bcum 1 pasar..stay same room..nt so ngan v da jie..v xiao mei smtime wil bc small things den argue..eviday meet face to face n wun f3l bored 1..my mum owy the 1 who fetc us go here n thr..bcum our driver n maid haha...dad owy the 1 who bcum our atm machine haha..press it den gt $ le haha...play, argue n fight den mum took rotan pukul us haha...

now..we are adult..xiao mei married le..bcum othas ppl wife+mother..bcum mature..19 oni..like 2 chat v my sis bc she is mature n no more childish thinking and some inrelevant imagination..some of the gal who are 19 will gt such kind of thinking..puppy love n blah blah blah..their stage of SWEET 19..parent owy said if sis dn marry, she still the 1 who vr hao min..nt nid do household..nt nid so young den gt 2 work n cn continue std..in hum xiao mei like qian jin..but after marry, she nid 2 learn evitin, noe evitin n take care the home..actually its good beginning for her to be independent..less arguement for us..start to grow up but our parent start getting older n older day to day...take a look on my mum hand..i will feel 岁月不饶人..in my heart, my mum is young n beautiful forever^^ my xiao mei gt the license ady haha..she is my driver haha YEAH=P

recently went to 拜外公, time rili flied fast..1 year ady..although no so close v him but evitime go 2 拜祭亲人, 心情都很沉重..

have a nice chat v my mum..last nite its full moon..vr beautiful..like it..long time dn see star..mum said if gt star den will rain haha..such a jokes..after broke up v my ex..start realize every single thing which around me...i have a great fren, a great family..b4 tat, i put relationship in the 1st place but now no more..someone asked me why dnwan start a new relationship..why? bc dn feel like 2 start smur my MR RIGHT dn apear yt LOL...

my fren go 2 operation..she dn contac me yt..hope she will be fine..such a kind fren..owy rmb me but im vr cruel 1..owy 4gt her..my fren zat me even bac bp oso dn inform>.<" familiar sentence leh haha..

wanna spend more time for my family..especially my mummy..noble mummy..love MUM

P.S.世上只有妈妈好，爸爸也不赖啦XD

well..update my blog now haha

finish my final n im having holiday now..managed to get a part time job in bp..2weeks holiday..i spent 1week in kl+perak den 1week in bp>>HOME SWEET HOME hehe..

gonna start my internship soon..quite looking forward to it..happy bc 4mths nt nid go back inti haha..i HATE inti lo..LOL~ i managed to get part time job in kl too hehe..short of money..haha..

i managed to get the rum n share v my classmate..v work in same company o..sept-dec will stay in prima,genting klang..met my housemate n they al nt bad la haha..

went to the interview of promoter n the interviewer asked inrelevant question n i shoot her directly..2 sections interview..1 is public n the other is individual..the interviewer asked the relationship status:single.available, single.unavailable, no single.unavailable, no single.available..wondering wat's the point she asked such ques..so i directly shoot her in public wat for i ans suc ques? no relevant to my job scope too..so i did no ans haha..my fren zdao bc my yu qi quite bad haha..luckily i stil passed the intervw n gt the job haha..

finaly went out v my ex..gud fren now..nt mur gan ga..quite comfortable be fren v him..its better than couple..haha..

today i went to facial..my face recently vr lan la..TBT==" feel like kena tipu by the beautician..spent so much in facial OMG..poor liao>.<""

P.S. bs ya, i will busy soon..27-30/8 part time bp mall 1030am-1030pm den 1/9 training in kl den evi wkend i wil work part time as promoter in kl o..den wkdays internship..so mostly wil on skype at nite i tink..my hp rosak n reprogram so lost al contac..send me ur contac number again ya^^ hehe..

你不知道的事

vr free now..finish the 1st paper I still got 3 papers to go but I still so free 3 8 here n there haha~I want watch LOVE IN DISGUISE haha~it will show at 12/8..looking forward to it..

suddenly gt the same feeling like last time I watched the movie "THE SECRET"..memory...sometimes its good for us sometime its bad..depend on how u think about it..some secrets in "THE SECRET" haha~its a memory I will keep n don't know when I will forget about it

能让时间暂停的魔法，那就是摄影，摄影师让瞬间，变成永恒的魔法。

i'm thinking of you

这时候最能让我想起你
多希望你在这里oh~~~
你总是愿意把你的手心
借给我握紧

该往哪里
我总是依赖著你
你是我的方向感oh~~~
我可以确定你会带著我朝对的方向前进

i'm thinking of you.
我有你真好
你能让烦恼变得渺小
我遇见一个最懂我的人
我会提醒自己把这份爱收好

i'm thinking of you.
我有你真好
只要牵著你的手就知道
我不是一个人在这世界停靠
因为我拥有你在我心里

30hours famine camp

famine famine famine~finaly its over haha~but i stil gt some stuff gt 2 do..kinda sad lo..final is around the corner i dnwan spend time in other things but join the camp n bcum committee so i gt the RESPONSIBILITY to settle my stuff..OH GOSH..no more nx time haha=P

after vent my frustration to my fren den f3l better now..fw day ago my laptp died due to its charger but now its alive again..im sooo happy..haha~thx to my fren tat she borrow her laptp to me to do famine stuff..so noble la her haha..
LIFE IS MEANINGLESS W/H LAPTOP in INTI haha

gt 2 fight for final~ganbatte~work hard..aza aza fighting~

upload some photo here haha~


my best partner..he rili helped me alot haha..i kp makan ular haha XD


another partner..she is younger than me..same birthday as my sis..surprise haha


cn considered as lengzai gua haha~bc wan took photo v him..den my camera fell down 2 the floor..XINTONG dao >.<


tis guy like 2 wear pink shirt so actuali i gv him a hua ming caled PINK COLOR..his atitute gt a bt..but overal he is nt bad d


VOC of this event..quite surprising tat he leave a note 4 me n said tat 加油，真正的我不是你看到的那样，我跟loraine玩罢了哈哈~ like this photo haha

nite nite~~it's vr quiet now..GUESS wat is in my mind? XD

finaly my law test n presentation were over..stressful for almost two days OMG>.<"" presentation im the 1st presenter n in the section of Q&A, many ppl asked the questions..fortunately most of them i can answer well haha thx god^^quite stress in FIN4205 so b4 go 2 presentation, practice in my rum haha..my fren quite surprise bc normaly i wun prepare or practice for the presentation 1 haha..

after law and presentation i stil gt the camp OMG..i try 2 make my life difficult rite?=="" there are so many things nid 2 key in OMG..i key in til wan FAINT ady OMG...fro 8+pm key in the data til nw 12+am le i stil cnt fin it OH GOSH..the cumin wkend bc of the camp so i cnt bac hum KOLIAN dao T.T..3wks cnt bac humtwn..i gt 2 sick soon >>HOMESICK muahahahahaha...

tdy chat v my rumate n i tink of some nosense again haha..只要你一句话，我一定会等你,very stupid n idiot lo haha=P i quite pei fu those person who have vr strong commitment in certain thing such as the guy they fancy..they can confirmed their f3lin tward the guy but like me, i cnt confirm..if the guy treat me nicely n i gt good f3lin tward him mayb i wil try 2 acept but i duno such "good feelin" can considered as "love" f3lin or nt haha...many things 2 do n sdly im tinkin of u..haha..bc u r the 1 who owy help me alot or share my burden in std or smelse..but nw i cnt depend on u anymur...i gt 2 b independent..i might be physically independent but in mentally im nt fully independent yt..nid to get rid the 依赖心..

learn fro experience and actuali i cn do the things myself..i wan to be INDEPENDENT^^

stressful>.<""

I love DAVE ^^..right hand side 1 not the left hand side haha..
DAVE: can u be my gf or fren? GF definitely haha~

i watched the soccerer apprentice n its soo nice..i like it haha..spent a wonderful sat v sinyi..hang out whole day..lunch sushi king+movie-ing..since she went to sg, v seldom contact n hang out ady..ts time she gt a long long long holiday n v have a lot of time 2 hang out tgt haha..missed the time that v tgt hehe..

this week quite stressful..many things 2 do OMG..test+presentation+30hours famine event aikss..smur the final is cumin soon..i dn prepare well yt..after ts wk stil gt 1 wk 2 go b4 final..i MUST distribute my time well..i hope i cn score well..aza aza fighting..GANBATTE!!!!!

feel touching that wen i gt sm difficulties no matter in my studied or relationship and so forth it sure will gt sm1 ther 2 help me..this is so called as FRIEND^^

today chat with bs tru skype n im soo happy la..its so amazing cn chat v her tru skype..wen i bac rum after class feel so stress den bs appear 2 talk smtin tat wat hpn 2 her recently..her voice is soo sexy n she helped 2 release my stress la haha..thx bs haha..

feel so surprise that i just simply comment in my junior pm den my comment helped him..he pt it as his msn pm as well haha...有时不是对方不在乎你，而是你把对方看得太重

sdly missed my hum although i jz back fro humtwn..i miss hum..my baby HERNG finaly gt 2 tooth ady n he noe how 2 walk well..he is soooo cute...天真无邪..

hope i cn gt a rum 4 my internship soon n wish me luck in my cumin test n presentation n final as well=)

OMG

感觉好像所有的坏运要一次过降临在自己的身上，一直对自己说要乐观点，说得容易做得难，我都不知自己在想些什么。

在家我真的觉得很无忧无虑，很轻松，怎么回到英迪我就感到很烦恼，心情很紧绷酱呢？压力吧～

首先就是被我的新室友吓到，现在已无大碍，我已经习惯了。
过后就是云顶没有回复我的申请，这次我真的是算错了，竟然把所有的赌注都丢在一个未知数上，结果现在有排烦了。我拒绝了所有供应住宿的公司，留下唯一一间做back up，当初我是觉得如果拿不到云顶，那我就去V公司上班，反正其他公司的job scope和这间公司一样，这间公司唯一的不同就是薪水较高。现在开始找家，才发现真的不容易，快被逼疯了。怎么麻烦事接二连三的找上我啦？奇迹奇迹奇迹，幸运之神几时才能出现呢？

虽说成绩不是一切，不要和别人比较，要比就和自己比，但是老实说我真的有点不满意，不过算了，下次再努力，加油～

当我很想挽救的时候你却无动于衷，我现在想维持普通朋友关系你却...我真的不想再自讨苦吃，我知道你心烦，但是我不是出气筒，朋友不是酱的，我可以容忍你，一次两次三次...被人误会我不喜欢多做解释，但是被在乎的人误会，那种感受很难过，我也知道你是嘴硬心软，其实对我很好，只是你的方式很“特别”。

希望这个学期快快过完，不开心的事及衰运能远离我，不想想太多，睡觉去哈哈～

Dream dog ^^

I like 黄金猎犬 very much..it is my dream dog since im young..but i cnt feed bc my mum dn allow>.<

bs hum gt such dog n i rili like it vr much..gt a bt chong dong wan go 2 buy it but...

i have no time 2 take care

my family working n nt time 2 take care as well

i gt asthma n actuali gt a bt sensitive tward fur of animal

aikksss...I WILL GET IT 1 DAY hahahahaha

happy moment v ER ER haha





she is very excited n kiss me hahahahaha XD

当我们同在一起

刚看完敏丝的部落格，心里有点感触...难以形容的心情哈哈

朋友

你可能有很多朋友

但真心的又有几个呢？

能一起分享快乐的有很多，但当你伤心，遇到困难时又有几个能陪你度过呢？

我是个不善于表达情感的人，所以有点酷..

真的很开心酱多年了我们五个的感情还能那么好，难得喔哈哈

丝丝要去澳洲了，突然有种很不舍得的感觉，今年很多朋友都出国读书，但唯有丝丝让我感触很深，可能是因为很要好的关系吧！

×真心×

抗拒+反感

本来它是很有意义的，但是却被别人利用为了更长远的利益，如果当初我看清了这个事实，我会不会放弃呢？

我还是很庆幸有它

它
让我拥有很多不同的体验

它
让我拥有很多美好的回忆 酸甜苦辣

它
让我懂得不是每件事都是这样的单纯，有些人做某些事，背后有着让人心寒的动机

它
已经被污染了，所以对它，我很抗拒及反感

subang>> face to face~~BR~~Starbuck~~Snowflake ^^

goin 2 subang today..v my lover ex roomate haha..1st time out v her n i was sooo happy la haha=)

we went 2 face to face eat pan me...it's had been long time i dn go 2 eat pan mee after i leave KTAR hehe..a lot of memory in face to face wen im in KTAR,setapak..im thinking of him bc pan mee is his favorite n i owy eat v him b4..it's just a memory haha

den v go 2 Baskin Robin haha..wednesday is pink day so v pay single scope price n having double scope ice cream..its soooo enjoyable haha..spent whole afternn in Starbuck..relax n v chat anytin..

f3l soo guilty..im sooo heartless..bs std in taylor nearly 1yr ady i tink..but i nvr go thr find her b4..can go taylor subang by inti bus but i never go to find her b4 aikksss..so bad la me..im busy dating b4 n 忽略 many things such as friendship, family..thx 4 bs,pr n ch never gv up me although i rili dn contac v them always b4..trying to appreciate my friends and family now..relationship is not my everything, its just part of my life n i should nt neglect them bc of relatnship..

having a nice day n im sooo happy..goin bac humtwn sooon n nephew gonna 1yrs old soon hahahahahahaha

insomnia?! maybe~~~~PERFUME

slept late den wk up super early..why? because of the perfume..the smell is sooooo..my room is full of perfume now..last nite im headache but i cnt sleep well because of the perfume..the perfume rili drive me crazy..but NVM la..as time longer, I tink i will gt used 2 it...

everyone gt their own lifestyle n i kp on persuade myself to accept accept accept n try 2 tink optimistic..hope i really cn do it..she is quite nice jz v gt diff lifestyle but its no a big problem..i cn solve it...i cn improve my english and she is nt tat kind of person who is panjang tangan..so i tink should b no problem for me..i jz nid some time..my fren said i look down..mayb..but im trying 2 accept it slowly..since it cnt chang anytin den the only way is trying to accept..btw i rili hate PERFUME so much...especially those v heavy smell..but....

finally i cn done my FIN n stil gt 1 ass 2 go..GANBATTE KUDASAI..mum i start missing u..

im sooo 矛盾..hope today will b a nice day 4 me^^



dear perfume, u r killing me now..with ur sweet smell ;(

lucky or unlucky??!! =X

wat time now? OH GOSH~ its 1am=.= before i sleep, i want 2 update my blog haha

goin bac humtwn on wednesday n its a lot of fun in my humtwn...spent my time with my family..I LOVE My family so much especially my little nephew herng herng..he is goin 2 b 1yrs old soon hehe..he noe hw 2 walk, hw 2 climb, hw 2 talk(some words like PAPA,MAMA), BUT he dnhv any teeth yt..normally wen BABY grow teeth they will fever and flu BUT herng herng is very special, he gt diarrhea>.< pity baby..1days 3times...his pigu sure vr painful but he duno hw 2 say PAINFUL TT

I wan helped my mum cut vegetable but end up my mum did hersel bc i cut my finger as well OMG haha..gt scolded by PR bc i dn msg her tat im bp now..aiya..have fun v PR n BS..yamcha section haha

wat i wan 2 share in my blog is.....

FINALLY i gt a new ROOMATE..cn u imagine wat rumate i gt?! i bec fro my humtwn den duno im lucky or unlucky..in bus a malay gal sat bsd me n her bau of perfume is soooo smelly...im having headache whole journey..want 2 vomit smur..den wen i walk 2 ktm fro seremban bstp i missed the ktm OH GOSH..end up i had 2 wait another 30minutes again>.< im sooo lucky tat in ktm i sat v 1 lengzai haha..at least gt smtin cn cheer me up instead of the perfume bau n missed ktm haha..the lengzai sat bsd me so i cnt c him so obviously aiya haha.. im quite surprising tat my coursemate is sooo nice..i told him cum out 2 help me carry my thing bc its vr heavy..actuali im jz kidding n he tk it seriously n rili wan out 2 help me..thx alot ya hehe..sooo touching la..

my rumate is indian gal..wen i entered my rum i tot i came in wrong room ==" i gt a big suprise from the accomodation office..i told the officer i wan chinese rumate but they gv me indian rumate..they r sooooo nice la..i dnhv race discrimination..i jz worried different race den gt different culture den mayb wil gt sm cultural crash..i communicate well v my rumate n straight 4ward told her im worried gt sm cultural crash bc 1st time i stay with indian gal..hope cn gt along well v my new and special rumate..

hope everything's going well=)

erm..blogging again LOL haha~bs blog is soooo funny la haha~

tdy after class den its raining heavily...thunderstorm smur..electric putus sdly aiksss..6-8 gt class den thr r presentation and the lecturer chose randomly..its soooo excited la..haha..my presentation owy vr funny 1..duno its my english language prob or my body language leh haha..

sister caled me n she told me some bad news..OH GOSH..sdly gt a f3lin wan 2 have family gathering..sit tgt n eat n chat evitin haha..seldom like ts bc my dad owy busy workin..he owy the earliest 1 out den the latest 1 reach hum..so no much time 2 communict v him...den after married sis oso seldom bec hum la..my oldest sis busy of their working stuff and recently her health gt some problem..aikss..f3l like i owy dn concern othas much..wen smtin hapn den baru noe 2 cherish..im kind of the person who duno hw 2 xpress my f3lin..i concern u but i never show it out..its vr weird if i sdly do smtin unusual haha..most frequently i 3 8 v mum nia..tel her tis n tat den she wil 3 8 v me n gv me sm opinion as well..my family all vr cool 1 so im the 1 who owy gao qi fen d la..tmr wil bec humtwn n hope 2 gt a family gatherin like eat steamboat or watchin movie la haha..

just rmb tat sm1 told me tat v should 惜福 *珍惜*

recently vr hardwrkin update my blog..why? because bs lo..LOL..

finaly i had completed my FIN ass..yahoooooooo..im sooo happy..100% completed haha..i put many effort in doing it..now stil leave 1 assignment 2 go..its ECO haha..i tink its no big deal for me as i gt all the information ady n leave paraphrase part den settle all^^

ts fw day i owy wrt abou my assignment..my blog is getting sooo bored la..let's talk other things instead of studied hehe..yesterday i chat v my fren..have been long time dn contact ady..he told me he gt 2 go AUSTRALIA soon..12/7..ts yr rili many gud fren leave me n go 2 overc std..anyway best wishes 4 them..when i noe he wil go 2 aus soon, i gt a bt mudy..nt bc of him..its bc nx mth gt 2 fren leave me..1 is bs n 1 is tat guy lo..they r my gud fren ma..sure gt a bt bu she de d..but tink of their future..its gud 4 them 2 go overc rather than stay in m'sia..if me i wil choose go overc as well hehe..then another guy fren vr 3 8..he told me "nvm, u stil have me." haha..kind of an wei me lo..LOL~ b4 degree, i gt kind of thinking tat i wan go overc but now im having my final yr in INTI..im sooo stress n just hope i cn complete my degree soon..after tat i dnwan further std anymur..wan take a break 1st..working 1st den mayb i wil continue std after tat ba..who noe haha...

my sis msg me n said my wardrobe is in a mess..OH GOSH..my mum evi morning rushing go 2 work so evitime i jz simply throw my clothes inside the wardrobe and 4gt 2 arange it well..aikkssss...wen go bac hum my mum sure nagging me d...go back hum i should arange it well although my sis had do it 4 me haha... wen im busy doin my ass, my room is in a mess until wen i c it i will bcum even mur pek cek aiyooo..pengsan...

today is my gud fren birthday..PAI FONG lengleng..wish her happy birthday n stay prety la..she is 1 of the gud fren tat i had in inti..from 1st sem until now v dnhv any conflict..she is 巨蟹座den im 双鱼座..v both r 水象星座so will tolerate each othas gua..haha..im nt superstition in horoscope..just smtime it quite accurate hehe..tolerate each othas so there wil b less conflict..my fren told me he gt sm internal conflict v hs group member den i told him tolerate each othas den less conflict..gt conflict den the job cnt b done den ruin the relatnship smur..以和为贵 this is wat i learnt last sem in my e commerce group ass hehe..dnwan conflict...wan peace..so tolerate each othas..but smtime wen im rili beh tahan the behavior or pattern of smbody..den my face will automatic show out wat i f3l..aiyoo..im an openbook la aiyooo..

ts wk go bec hum den vr soon will gt a trip v my fren..quite lookin 4ward d lo..but i oso quite guilty d..ts sem i like vr lazy jiang..aiksss..dn std muc..gt 2 die soon la..STUDY HARD..buck up^^

another new week again...busy week again..the end of the june n the beginning of july..alot of assignment,presentation n test are waiting for me OMG...this is so caled as study life>.< evi wkend i wil well planned for it bc i dnwan stay in jungle..its soooo bored in inti..beh tahan la..gt 2 busy my kokurikulum again n i owy makan ular 1 haha..ts wk f3l soo guilty la..i gt 2 skip my thurs n fri class bc wan 2 hang out v my lover~~bs n ch hahaha..the MGT is sooooo bored..the lecturer like 2 SS OH GOSH..so i prefer 2 skip it lo.. ts fw wk i ate many unhealthy food n lack of sl3pin time omg..brain cancer wil find me soon la aiyooo..miss HOME-COOK food..MUMMY I MISS U=)

dnwan 2 tink so much..i jz duno wat im tinking abou..nonsense things? mayb haha~ts wk i should go back 2 my 1st hum or 2nd hum leh? wondering..im vr lazy dn stdy much aiksss..the assignment drive me crazy..smtime i wil gt such f3lin tat i need smbd 2 acc me but there r nobody tat i want..smtime i wan cal my parent wen im stress or emo but i take out the hp, den im vr hesitated 2 press their number n cal in..i dnwan they worry bou me..if i cal them den they wil f3l tat i gt smtin wrong n worry me..so i prefer 无声的想念..bs said im tat type of gal whic r 早熟..maybe..i miss my dad,my mum, my sis n my lovely nephew so much..zzzzz..hope tis wk i cn finish my FIN and ECO assignment, the genting cn gv me an offer so i cn gao dim my internship document...there r just 3days 4 me n i gt 2 run away fro inti again OMG..hope i cn used ts 3days 2 finish the target i wan..GOD BLESS ME

seldom update my blog...last nite bs was nagging ask me to update..well..i do it now=P

a WONDERFUL weekend i spent v my lover BS hahaha~ f3l soooo guity la..she studied in taylor 1year+ ady i tink..but i never cum 2 her house b4 OMG...ts wkend 1st time i came 2 subang find her..haha..i tot i will just spend my weekend in her house..it is better than stay in inti haha..but v both hang out shopping..she stil having her exam on wednesday..last paper n she didn't well prepare AT ALLLLL =.= she said she hope cn gt a PASS because she hate tat subject and had no motivation 2 study.. CUM ON..lover..fight till the end..tis is ur last subject..dn b lazy and stop FB-ing PLS hahahahahhaha XD

well..v went 2 sunway by bus..v r vr lucky tat the bus cumin in time..reach sunway..i never been fish market b4 so v went thr 4 lunch..it's full of ppl so v gt 2 wait n bs vr talkative 1..gossip gossip haha..after tat v start shopin...ther r sales in many shop n bs bought 2 clothes...i chose 4 her 1 haha...im quite satisfied in this shopin aldw i rili spent a lot T.T bankrupt ady...i have been long time dn go 4 shoppin and i bought all neccessary things so wun f3l "xintong" haha... bs told me she online search smtg n found wat i said is correctly tat 前世，我跟人有约定，今世要在一起haha..it's my secret in my hand hahaha...sound like i gt a 坎坷爱情在前世 zzzzzzzz..i wun go 2 search it purposely..hope cn meet v u in the right place n right time hahahaha

my fren caled me n im vr sl3py so nt sure wat he is talkin abou..OH GOSH...if no mstkn he told me he is sicked..hope he cn recover soon la... give u my LOVE so u cn recover soooon hahahhahaha XD

P.S. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

现在很得空，所以就来写部落格啦！ 朋友又对我发脾气了，我呀！不想硬碰硬,所以就自己忍忍忍咯！忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空嘛！虽然我真的很不开心他酱子，哎哟>.< final year了，多多少少会有些压力，有时因为assignment能搞到我睡不着，真是的,没完成assignment我就没心情想别的事，就不喜欢拖着功课所以想快快做完。

我的生活就是每天上课，做功课，忙课外活动（只是暂时性的），还有internship的东西咯！除了这些，让我有动力的就是每个周末的到来，因为我每个周末不是回家就是东跑西跑哈哈～就是死都不想呆在英迪咯哈哈～感觉今年好像过得很快酱，现在六月即将结束，7月将来临了，所有的ass due和test和presentation都会在7月完成，然后8月就到大考啦！

外甥的一岁生日要到啦！要去买礼物了，不然接下来的周末我都不得空了哎呀～

14/6/2010

亲爱的部落格被荒废了很久，突然想找个地方发泄情绪。
本来一切都是那么的美好，就因为你的离开而在我的人生有了一个新的转捩点。
想想着在一起的日子，喜怒哀乐，虽然时常吵架，但是感情还是很好。
曾经有个朋友告诉我，缘分有时是掌握在自己手里，一旦放开了，或许就溜走了，不再回来，不再是你的了。
曾经还以为你是最了解我的人，明白我在想什么，觉得不论发生什么事你都绝不放手，但是我错了，就算爱情有多年的基础，那也不代表能够排除万难，不会分手。因为了解而分开，我现在终于明白了。
在我的爱情观里，是没有童话般的爱情，合则在一起，不合则分。
当想放弃一个人时，并没有想象中的简单，需要很多很多的时间，表面上是放下了，但是扣心自问，其实心里还没真的放下，会因为他的小动作，言语而情绪波动。
有时我真的不知自己在想什么，我内心最想念的人，最想逃避的东西是什么。
很多人想逃避某样东西时，就会选择把自己搞到很忙，什么都不想，或者是一句顺其自然来遮盖内心所想的东西。
我或许看起来真的是拿得起，放得下，但是又有谁是真正的了解我呢？表面上很开心，其实是不想让别人担心，也不想让别人看到自己最弱的一面。
我并不是个很强悍的人，有时我还是希望有个地方能够让我脱掉所有的提防之心，让我就单纯的躺在你怀里，什么都不要问，什么都不要讲，静静的陪着我，让我依靠就行了。
从上一段爱情，我学会了什么呢？我学会了不再酱任性，多一点包容，体谅和信任。多年的爱情基础不算什么，它还是会脆弱的不堪一击，不是每件事情都是理所当然的，拥有时要懂得珍惜。

谢谢你曾经走进我的人生，给我的回忆，但是现在是时候真的把你从我心里彻底赶走，我不想被任何人牵引着我的情绪，我就是我，不属于别人，只属于自己，开朗的宝宝，加油=)